A Love Like No Other

I'll be gone

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 16:22:14 GMT

So things are getting busy with a wedding and now a funeral coming up for my uncle. I'll be gone for a week to help care for my niece who's a premi with a rare blood disease and whose very sick right now.

I'm serious... you just can't make this shit up or even want to. So I'm sorry I'll be disappearing again, but I really wish everyone the best and that you all are safe and warm and happy! Please, please, please stay safe!

Love,

Sara

I'm not sure what to say...

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 07:54:14 GMT

First I want to apologize for not leaving a post that I'd be gone for a little while; I didn't expect to be so busy! Today was my first ever break... and nope... I didn' get to spend it with him. : ( In fact he hasn't even replied. Sooo.... I've been a very tiring mix of happy and depressed this whole time. That's a dangerous mix for me. I get... a little crazy when I'm on a emotional rollercoaster, unable to say what I need or want to, and being busier than I need be during a break. So... today was that day I could do what I wanted to (well, now it's yesterday).

The day was looking great... I played with my new Lancome cosmetics and lotion, styled my new hair cut, wore my leopard print flats with my black stockings, and my top with a belted waist and black pencil skirt. (All newly purchased) The theme was a new year with a new beginning. I was heading out onto my first bus where I saw an old classmate who complimented on how my hair gave me even more of a baby face. Is that even a compliment? I don't know... just trying to be positive here. I was going to be a little late and gave my cousin a call. Turns out her guy was going to be the exact minutes late I was going to be, so things were still looking good. I thought... wow, what can possibly go wrong today? In fact it seem liked nothing would. We went out to dim sum, got all my favorite foods, didn't overstuff myself, had a great time with the couple and not feeling third wheelish, the check wasn't so bad, got a free smoothie and a few Pump it Up and DDR games treated by my cousin's guy, went to M.A.C. and restocked on my favorite cosmetics aside from Lancome, got that hot pink silk blouse that was finally on sale!!!

Everything was great right? So I went to Godiva and saw that the chocolates I had gotten him at full price ($26.00 for a 19pc Christmas Ballotin), well... he was suppose to receive it before Christmas and after the final final... but since that didn't happen, they have been sitting in my drawer. Well, it was on sale for 15.00!!!! I was like, wow... I could have just gotten it for 15.00 dollars and it wouldn't make a difference because he still wouldn't have gotten them yet anyway. (Okay, so I was still a bit crushed that I haven't had a reply yet...) So heading home with a small box of chocolates to soothe myself down to the transit station, I was stopped by a mall officer.

"I'm sorry ma'am, but you'll have to go up to the second floor and take an elevator down from there... we are investigating a crime scene."

I cooperated of course, but I seriously thought that it was like a robbery or something. So I hurriedly got on an elevator as people started to talk about someone who jumped off the ramp and committed suicide...

I walked across the skyway to get to the transit station, and there I saw it... police officers surrounding the area the person had fallen... blood in a puddle... and a head seperated from it's body inside a red plastic bag... or it could have been a clear plastic bag and covered in blood. I was right above them. I wasn't sure if I wanted to throw up, panic, or cry... and I'm just shocked right now. There hasn't been any news on this as of yet, but it's surely coming. They have yet to see if this was an accident, intentional homicide, suicide, or whatever it may be. I just thank God that I did not see the face or watch the person fall... because I would be a very different person right now.

I can't begin to describe how it feels like... I cant stand seeing these kinds of things. This is my second time already seeing a crime scene, the first person was run over by a car in front of my house. His blood stained the street, and his head was squashed into the pavement... and the blood stained car drove back to the crime scene.

This is not the new beginning that I was hoping for...

It's not exactly what I had planned...

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 22:06:10 GMT

...but nothing ever goes as I planned so it's no big deal I guess. <3

Soooooo... I was going to ask him out to celebrate finals in person yesterday. I swear I didn't chicken out, I just didn't want to disturb his class and had things to finish and was still running on 0 hours of sleep. Yes, it does sound like a lot of excuses... but I finished 6 papers with various length requirements in 5 hours! Doesn't that count for something? LOL, just kidding. So after 9 and a half hours of glorious sleep, I got up in the morning to email him. It was only 4:35 am, so I decided that it would be pretty creepy if I send it right away and went back to sleep... lol. However, I finally sent that saved draft at about 10:58 am.

Hey ******, How are those finals going? I hope they aren't stressing you out too much, or more than they need to. :) I just found out I have my winter break planned out for me and I have no choice but to accept it. :( I thought I might as well spend some time catching up with my favorite people before I'm abandoned in the woods of ******** lol. I know we both have our last final on Wednesday, and I think it's more than worthy of a celebration (or at least to ease the pain lol). I finish at about 4:00. If you aren't already booked (which I'm betting you are), my favorite Thai place just opened up in downtown and is a fairly quick bus ride on the 16 or 50 (and there's a little bit of walking involved, but it's only three blocks). If you already have plans, I'd completely understand and hopefully I'll be able to catch you before classes get crazy next semester. By then I'll probably get to tell you about the deer and squirrels I made friends with over break lol. Please let me know as soon as you can if this is even possible. -Sara

I know, I am such a dork... but um after 2 hours of deleting and typing... I decided to be as weird as I truly am. I will post as soon as I get a reply. :)

What Do You Have To Say? - Public Transit Nightmare

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 03:43:55 GMT

What has been your worst experience on public transit?

Submitted By insomniac_krys

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It was a very cold day as I was waiting at my usual bus stop. There was this building that use to be like an automobile museum of some sort, it was glowing with lights and the promise of warmth. I had only known of that spot because a friend had shown me it two days before. It was close to the bus stop and was pretty much unoccupied at the front doors, so I gave in and went inside to keep warm. There was a man who was already inside, but I couldn't see him from the angle I was at prior to going in.  I kept quiet as I usually do, and didn't think much of the situation, because it really wasn't much of a situation. At least, not until he began to speak...

"My people were here before your people!  You people walkin' around like you own the place! Yeah I said it!"

Though I heard what he had said pretty clearly, there was a part of me that said... 'No, that can't be it... that's not what I heard.' So I continued to look out the glass windows for my bus, and stayed quiet. I thought it would be the best thing to do and didn't think the man would get even more irritated, but he did...

"Oh, you actin' coy on me, huh? You actin' like you ain't heard what I said?"

By this point, the tone of his voice had my sympathetic nervous system going, but I pretended not to hear and was thinking frantically about how to exit the doors without making much of a commotion.  I thought of calling someone on my cellphone, but of course I had left it at my brother's the other night.  I tried not to swallow to hard either, or even breathe at that point.

"Lord forgive me if I should stab this child in front of you right now... Lord forgive me if I should stab this child...."

Okay well, I pretty much decided that if I were to die, I'd like it to be out in the open where I would have witnesses, so I pushed the door open and ran outside to the stop before listening to him finish that sentence, and there was my bus!  Right on time! I was relieved, got in and once I sat down, the same man sat down right next to me! He was still irritated but I got up and stood so an elderly woman could sit down. I stood up the whole time, and he seemed to calm down a little, though he kept talking to everyone around him. I stayed quiet and tried my hardest not to have any eye contact with him, but once the elderly woman got off on her stop, he asked me if I wanted the seat back.

I smiled and said as politely as I could, "Oh no thank you sir! I'm fine standing and someone else may need the seat soon. Thanks again."

He was shocked, but he returned the friendly smile and said, "You are like a ray of sunshine, you know that? Has anyone ever told you how you glow like the sun? I don't even know how to describe it, your smile is just so warm and bright, that's all I can say. I just wanna take you home, when you smile like that.  I can get none of that, can I? You ain't interested in no old man like me right? "

I didn't know how to answer so I just got off at that stop and decided that it was best if he didn't know where I live, even if I had to walk ten blocks in the freezing cold. Fortunately I have never seen him ever again.

I'm not exactly new here...

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 03:31:57 GMT

I used to be an active member until 5 years ago and then I forgot my password after that. woops.